I guess our biggest change as of now, is that our family will be GROWING by 2 sweet precious feet in August of 2013. :) We are BEYOND excited!! We found out God was blessing us with another baby on Christmas morning! What an awesome Christmas gift!! Yes it was a little bit of a surprise, but oh how thrilled, pumped, excited we are! Why did I take a test then?? Well I thought I was just car sick, from driving around Florida with Adam and his parents, but after having a couple of moments where I thought I was literally going to throw up & every smell stood out...I thought, well maybe?? Sure enough, it wasn't me being car sick. I was pregnant! I was overjoyed, happy, excited, shocked, eager, nervous; Tons of emotions flooded my mind! I wrapped up the "pee stick" & gave it to Adam. I think he was a bit shocked too when he opened it! He was like ''you are''? lol We are super blessed & SO very ecstatic! More about this pregnancy to come (cause lets be honest, it needs its own post) :) Oh and a quick side note :) The ONLY reason I was comfortable with disclosing this wonderful exciting information about "baby" is because no one I personally know is reading this. :) Ok maybe 1, but probably not lol and if by chance any of my friends who know me ARE reading this, they either already know or I'm trusting people will keep this HUSH HUSH until I PERSONALLY announce our fabulous news! So please keep this blog post between me, your computer and your eyes :) It just felt so good to share it, I couldn't resist!! Don't worry it WILL be public knowledge before you know it! I'm too excited to stay quiet any longer! I'll explain in my next post (which will be ALL about baby), why we have kept it hush hush for so long.
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| It might not be the brightest of 2 pink lines, but let me reassure you they only got brighter!! :) |
Our next big change....is....we are moving! Yep, moving! Not to another state or far away. We are just moving houses. Well God willing that is! Adam & I have been talking about wanting to move for a few years now, but never really felt like it was time. Then at the end of last year we both said, yep I think its time. We prayed about it & really thought about it. At Christmas time we went to Adam's grandma's for christmas. The kids just had the best time playing around in her yard. It was then that Adam specifically feels like he felt that God was nudging him and telling him its time to move forward, time to take that step of attempting to move. So we met with a realtor at the beginning of January and lets just say after talking with him, I kind of freaked! I thought what are we doing??? I can't do this!! Then a week later we met with another realtor & Adam & I both felt so much peace about it! We prayed & talked about it & well... we decided to go through with it! Adam fixed some things up around the house, did some touch up paint, cleaned out some stuff, they came and took pictures of the house & VOILA, as of February 15, 2013 our house officially went on the market.
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| Something about when this box went on the door, things got a whole lot more surreal! |
Oh and to just back up a bit, about a week ago, we wrote a contract on another house that we were looking at. Not 100% sure its "OUR" house...but it a high possibility! We are praying nonstop & just asking God for direction & peace about all this! I have been praying that if this is His will, then things will just happen smoothly and fast! If this isn't His will, then I pray that He shuts the door fast and gives us clarity, conformation and peace about it all! We feel this is what God wants for us! Its hard though when you feel like this is right, but people are telling you its wrong. That stirs up so much doubt, confusion, worry, stress. I keep asking myself is this wrong in their eyes because its just wrong to them?? Or is it wrong because thats God trying to tell us to shut the door?? But then why would we feel like He's telling us something different?? Why would we feel His go ahead on this? Yes its a change, yes its scary, yes there a lot of unknown, and yes I am extremely sick with this pregnancy. So I understand some doubt from us & from other people. But I'm So confused!! So sometimes you just gotta walk away from all the talk and talk with just God and thats it! I'm relying on Him to guide us & direct us and for Him to give us words of truth of what He wants, not what we want! I think Adam and I came to this conclusion after this past weekend, when lets just say I crashed with my emotions and feelings and I think I was the most scared and confused about this process as I ever have been. The house had just went on the market on Friday, on Saturday we had showings all day. Wow, that fast! It had not even been on market 1 hr and people were calling to come see it. We were encouraged by that, but still everything was happening so fast! Then the doubt started to set in when we hear words against our moving & it was just a lot of discouragement for me...So it took a few days of crying, freaking out I guess you can say, praying, and talking it through with Adam for me to feel better about this! Adam and I are very open with each other about our feelings and thoughts! If there is anyone I can talk to, its Adam! I am so thankful for that! We might not always have the same worries or fears, but somehow we always seem to ease each others worries! One thing we are really good at is communicating & being there for one another, just loving on each other. Instead of struggles pulling us apart, I think we really use them to just grow closer together! So I am trusting God! Nothing more, nothing less! Its HIS will, not ours! I'm praying, seeking Him & fully relying on HIM to get us through this! This isn't suppose to be a miserable experience, so I am trying to enjoy it and learn from it! Trying not to let my fear rule me! I know that my emotions, feelings, worries are all magnified right now because, well my body is busy making a baby :) And yes...I'm sick as a dog & Adam and the kids have had to do everything for the past 6-7 wks. because I haven't really left the couch :( They have been great! So yes I am worried about how it will all happen with me being weak and sick. But I know that God is bigger then all that! If this is His will and His timing, then my sickness, or a not completely clean house, or even people seeing the house when I'm here laying on the couch, none of that is going to get in His way and His plan! Things don't have to be perfect for Him to complete His will and do His work! Because I know He is bigger than this and I know that He has a purpose and a plan! Proverbs 3:6 Seek God's Will in all you do, and He will show you the path to take. I'm seeking His will & praying that He shows us the path! Even if that path means we don't move!! I am ok with that! Jeremiah 33:2, 3 "This is God's message, the God who made earth, Made it livable and lasting, known everywhere as God; Call to me and I will answer you. I'll tell you marvelous and wondrous things that you could never figure out on your own." Lord knows, Adam and I can't figure this out on our own! We are calling to Him!! Isaiah 26:3 "You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trust in you." Isaiah 40:31 "But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint." We are fully trusting in the Lord! May we find strength in Him. Thankful over the past week that He has provided peace! Yes I am still unsure about things and I do not know what the path holds, but at least I know that HE holds our path, our future! So for now, I continue to lay on the couch, continue to be extremely sick, continue to trust Him, continue to pray, continue to wait as we sell the house. Yes, things are changing! Not all change is bad though! Change is just change; different & sometimes thats a little scary! HE is faithful though!! It doesn't matter what season we are going through, He is STILL God and I have every reason to sing and worship Him!
As far as changes with Adam's work... He is growing! WOOHOO!! Adam has been waiting patiently to start using 2 rigs, 2 sets of workers at 2 different jobs. I am so proud of him for his determination, his passion, his drive, his patience, his hard work, his dedication! I seriously don't know of a harder working man!! We are so very thankful for all the work that God has provided and will are praying and trusting for more work! Of course with this change and the process of growing his business, it has required more of his time! There have been strikes from the enemy to discourage Adam, but Adam hangs in there, pushes forward & believes and trust in the Lord! There have even been times where the kids haven't seen him for a couple days, (due to late nights, early mornings), times of dinner without him (that one gets me every time)...but when we need him, he is there! Things are starting to become more steady, which means he has been home more (hallelujah)!!
School is going great! The kids are doing really awesome at Timothy this year! Tons of projects are being done & I love seeing the desire to learn on their face! Ashton is probably my biggest hurdle though right now. :( Poor dude is just struggling with his reading. Some days are great...while other days are h.o.r.r.i.b.l.e! I'm trying to figure out why this time (#3) of teaching to read is going SO slow, and is such a struggle. Is it my style of teaching, is it his lack of interest, is it his speech issue thats the problem....What IS the problem and how do I solve it?? There have been days that I have just cried and wondered what to do. I have thought about a tutor for him, I have thought about public school, and I have thought, well, that I just need to chill! It will click, when it clicks, and I need to have more patience!! He does have a speech issue which I believe is a lot of the problem. But man, when he has a good day, its a REALLY good day!! :) I want him to ENJOY school and learning! I'm gonna continue doing what we're doing, but also do a lot of praying for some patience and for some direction!
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| This is Ashton reading his first mini story book! It was a really good day! I'm so proud!! |
Change, change, change....Those are just a few areas of changes that are going on in our life right now! I am so blessed and thankful and excited about 2013 and what all God is going to do and all these opportunities that He is giving us! Obviously there are more changes going on then just that, I feel like I felt so much out, but guess its long enough. lol after all not everything needs to be wrote down. :) Sorry for it being long. Wait, nope not sorry! :) Next post about the "new" baby might be even longer :) God is good, what can I say!!
Much love :)
Well I am one friend that will read your blog! :) glad you could get it all out and vent!!
ReplyDeleteAwe thanks Sara! I Never know who reads it & who doesn't. :) It was just nice to share a little bit about what has been going on over here :)
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