Bittersweet

So the day has finally come of no more nursing for Lofton. Bittersweet for sure! On Sunday night I went out with some girlfriends for dinner & Adam was left to put the kids to bed. Honestly when I left for dinner it didn't even cross my mind that he would be putting them to bed! Usually our kids stay up till we are both home to put them to bed. I also figured I would be home in plenty of time! Well I was wrong...Lofton fell asleep just fine & off to his bed he went. I even found myself going into his room checking on him when I got home and rubbing his back a little, hoping he would wake up to nurse. No such luck, so then out I went. He officially, went to bed, without nursing! Wow! I knew the day would be coming soon because I have been trying to slowly wean him. So he really wasn't nursing that much anyways, but he still was before bed! So the next night he nursed, but for just a few minutes! His interest wasn't the same... My heart ached a little!! Not gonna lie! Then the next night he didn't nurse at all & well from then on he hasn't. At 18months Lofton has officially stopped nursing. Wow!! Even writing that out leaves me with a little bit of a heavy heart, well not really heavy just with a sadden heart. Another sign that my babies are growing up too fast!! There's that which once was a first, is now a last!! A milestone, that I won't get back with him! A tear rolls down my check as I think of all the wonderful moments & smiles I had with Lofton while having ''our'' bonding moments. No one else can experience those moments with him. For that I am extremely grateful for those wonderful 18 months!! Now, we move forward....and find other moments & memories to make and cherish! Bittersweetly!!